Monday, September 28, 2009 @ 4:47 PM
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im sorry !i love you till i cant bear to leave. i dun wana to see u walk out of my life.days goes by and i realise that i need you more and more.we still have our vows. please dun let them be broken promises.im sorry !
@ 4:20 PM
Lessons ended off early. Had PE, had this period combined with 2B. I saw WL. i felt like asking her why why why and why she choose to hurt him once. Whad's the prob with her? He's such a nice guy, caring and sweet.... Playing volleyball- got my right index finger swollen when hitting the volleyball lor. Dint even realise that i've injured it. LOL. after that was chemistry, luckily Miss.Fong was not in school lor. Dint get scolded for not handing in the chem equation paper. Haha. Dhen had recess, followed by art. ART was SICK! all of us were talking bout malay guys cutting their blah blah blah :X After that went to com lab, and print our research stuffs for the art coursework. Actually need to stay back for extra history and math lesson de. But in the end, one of the teacher canceled the supplementary, the other went missing. Was slacking in the class while waiting for julian to fetch me from school. Time really passes slow.. When i saw him, the period of time passes fast -.- How i wished that the time i could spend with him would be longer.. He coughed T.T Faster get well soon ok ? Drink more water hor. No more chocolates and fried food for you le. I feel that im like his mum that would always nagggggg at him non-stop. Haha. But i think he likes it. Hehe (: After that reach home and called him. I think i shouldnt have said so much. I SHOULDNT !!!! I hate myself so much, why must i hurt him so much ? Explaining wont help. It will just hurt even more. im asking myself too, why did i hurt him when i know he cares bout me the most ? I dint really wan to hang the phone without saying anything. But if i continue explaining, perhaps things would go worse. I shouldnt have say so much... Shedding tears dont help. IT DONT ! T.T
I wished i hadnt said them out.
Edwin Tioh, i hate you, you're always the one that cause the fights inbetween us. __
just fcuk off and never come back will you?!
Stop looking can you ?
I HATE YOU.baby, im sorry.
please forgive me alright ?
no more him.
no more him in our conver.
no more fights.
im sorry.
Friday, September 25, 2009 @ 7:09 PM
It's 7.09 now.
Time really passes fast.
I had just reach home swimming with celine.
Tired and.. angry -.-
Her friend, her friend...
Feel like smacking her, interupted my conversation -.-
Let's dun talk bout her le.
Wasting my energy typing. zzz.
Woke up rather late today.
Slept at 12 ytd, super tired.
Lessons continue as usual. all teachers are rushing to finish their lessons.
Super duper sian. -.-
Feel like sleeping lor.
But was talking to ruixuan bout many things inside my heart.
Thanks girl (:
After school, i bought celine up to my house.
She's waiting for me to change and then go over to her house.
Met Julian under by block, dhen we head over to celine's house.
Celine house was like ----- !
Kinda shock when i went it just now. LOL.
Dhen i got nothing to do, so i helped her.
He's with me, and i feel comfortable.
Without him with me, things were somehow not going right everything T.T
We're slacking at celine's house till 3 dhen we took bus to CCK swimming mall.
Julian went home. Felt empty inside me T.T
Thinking why im liddat, it's me who called him to go home de lor.
After that swim till 5+ i think.
Dhen celine and i went to shower and went to lot.
Ate my dinner dhen went to library to return my books.
Now im at home, read his offline messages and, thanks for being there with me(:
i hope my improvement would allow you to stay with me till the day i dies.
im starting to need you more as the days goes by.
i <3 you
Thursday, September 24, 2009 @ 6:43 PM
There's so much i wanted to say to you. There's so much things bothering my heart right now. I wanted to tell you how much i need you, how much i wanted u to stay by my side. But i couldnt make it. Whenever i wanted to do so, the words just wouldn't come out. They just wouldn't. Thanks for being with me all this while, loving and caring me. Thank you so much, and i love you so much. This all i can say right here.. You might never know how im thinking inside becuz i've always been keeping things to myself. And i asked my friend, whad if they were you. Now, i understand how u felt. All i could say is sorry. Today i had this weird feeling in my heart, isit because im thinking too much or it's happening now. The way u talked to me made me feel like crying, it made me feel that things between us is changing. Like whad my friend had said, i need to find the motivation taht you gave me to be true to you. I'll speak up my mind, im trying, trying my very best. Things will get better between us, wun they?
Baby, i'll determine to you that i can do it!
It just takes time...
You'll see the improvement make by me.
Alrights gtg le.
Exams coming. & it's revisions time!
Bye..
i could feel my heart aching inside.
im not crying this time round, cuz i knw i got to face it.
i got to change it to last everything inbetween us.
Wednesday, September 23, 2009 @ 5:26 PM
Back to blogging ! Haha :D
*sigh, to day is a tiring day for me. I slept at 12 plus yesterday night just to complete the stupid math assignmant that i had owed teacher for days -.- I dint even get the chance to study for my chinese test for today -.-
Had my lessons :
- Math, doing own's math practice paper -.-
- Chinese, test lor. Many of us dunnoe how to do! I played cheat :X
- English, we went to the com lab for our oral composition practice :S
- Recess, called Julian while eating fingerfood(:
-Physics, go through our physics assignment [:
- History, copying notes and chit-chatting ! :D
Then the bell rang ! Haha. I like this time best in school! Weeetes~!
Met him and erm, sorry to let you wait for me so long under the scorching sun. Sorry!
Actually i really wana slack with u de lah. just that im very tired. sorry.
Went home, called you and erm. Dun feel like sleeping anymore! Haha.
My bed is my 2nd boyfriend! Haha.
And i went online, and confessed to you. Is that called confess?
Actually is not i dun like you lah, just like u say, my actions dun show. But deep down inside, i really love you alot! Alot till im afraid to loose you. Im afraid that u'll be another *him.
Im really afraid. That's why im afraid to put my everything into it. Im sorry alright ?
Alrights, i'll end here le.
Darling, drink more water.
Bye (:
Sunday, September 20, 2009 @ 5:55 PM
Hello Poeple.
It's been a long time since i last updated.
Ytd was our first month!
Julian's and i !
Hahahahahaha :D
So happy bout it.
We'll last as long as we want ok?
Haha.
Im looking forward to our 2nd month, and the rest of our lives(:
And im looking to the outcome of our rings too! :D
Ytd wasnt being able to meet him up.
He went to celebrate clement's birthday, i went to my grandma's house.
I went over there to see KiKi!
Im damn happy to see her.
When i open the gate, she came running out and starting to lick all over my face.
I just wanted to let the time stop at there whereby she lays quietly on my arms.
After that went to temple with my grandma and grandpa.
My family members are all buddhist. But for me i prefer beliving in the jesus christ more :X
Though i dun really worship the buddhist gods, i prayed that i daddy would allow me to be toghether with Julian. That's the 1st thing that came out of my mind than for me to pray hard for my upcoming examinations. The last thing that i do in my life is to break up with him. I think im getting deeper and deeper, till i dunnoe how i can stop myself.
May god bless bahs(:
Today morning, i woke up at... afternoon.
When daddy was bathing, i called julian up.
Happy to hear his voice, but sad to know that he's sick.
Baby, get well soon alright?
Hope u'll get well soon.
Drink more water.
For now, dun smoke le. I think will make ur throat worse.
No more chocolates for you.
Bear with it awhile ok?
Wait till u're fully recovered then i allow u to eat.
Remember to take temp, just in case u'r having a fever.
Go see docter if u're still unwell ok?
Call mum or dad to cook porridge for u.
Get well soon!
Oh, weihao, dun worry. U'll find someone better de.
Cheer up okays.
And u remember to call weide they all to join in the blog thingy.
Dhen remember to post -.-
The whole thing only got me post lor. zzz.
Alrights, got to go le.
Baby, get well soon.
Drink more water :D
Thursday, September 17, 2009 @ 8:40 PM
Today i had i long day in school.
Had my lessons.
Inbetweent all breaks i called Julian.
Simply love his voice. Haha.
Lesson lesson lesson.
Finally school end le!
Yipppppeee :D
And finally can see him le.
Hahahahaha.
My boyfriend's new hairstyle is damn nice and cool.
I think he looks good in whadever pose, whadever hairstlye.
Hahahaha.
Counting down to 2 more days, and it's first month!
Damn happy bout it(:
Hope things will be better and better and that we'll last together forever! :D
Hahahahahaha. Lol.
Having him beside me, i think im the most fortunate person on Earth !
2 more weeks to SA2.
Jiayous! :D
Gtg, bye!
Tuesday, September 15, 2009 @ 9:27 PM
Mood swings T.THappy go lucky.Lol.Hope things goes better for weihao bahs(:Counting down to 1st month.
4 more days to go hubby! :D
Hahaha.
Looking forward to the outcome of the rings(:
Got alot of homework to do siah! T.T
Revisions!
2 more weeks to SA2.
SO FAST !
*sigh.
Lastly, im sorry to make a fuss over everything darling.
Sorry sorry.
i love you alright? (:
Jiayou Jiayous :D
Haha.
alrights, gtg le.
Nights :D
Monday, September 14, 2009 @ 8:09 PM
Today im so damn happy.
Finally can see him le! ;D
Hahahahahaha.
Miss him so much over the holidays.
He said, nothing will break us up.
I'll always remember this, in my heart (:
Haha.
Today had school and it ended early.
To those people out there in the sch, please lah.
I dint do anything wrong to you ok?
Dun gimme that cb face.
Thanks :D
Alrights, i got to go and chiong my eng compre le.
Bye!
Sunday, September 13, 2009 @ 9:05 PM
Yesterday was a fun and tiring day for me.
Firstly, i woke up early and got ready for Ryan's birthday "party".
Uncle came to fetch me.
In the car, Ryan was laughing and saying "my birthday my birthday!".
He's 3 years old this year le, times flies fast..
Went to Jack Place to eat dhen after that the whole family of us went to Vivo.
Walked around the shops dhen bought baby to play at the kids corner at the dunnoe which level.
After that went to walk around again.
From U.R.S to Charles and Keith.
Dhen aunt bought ryan to toyrus.
Rest of us went to walk into all the shops!
Heeeeeels to Clothes.
Love them so much.
Too bad, dint have enough money with me, dhen cant buy lor T.T
But never mind lahs, guess there'll be better designs next time.
Haha. Lol. After that went to eat dinner at pasir panjang?
I think it's there bahs. Haha.
Went to eat duck rice.
Since im young, we always went there to eat.
YUMMMMMMMY :D
After that uncle sent me home.
Reached home at.. dunnoe whad time lah, i only know im damn tired.
Today woke up early, bathe for vicky and packed her stuffs.
Kinda sad for today.
I sent her away le, but only temporary lahs.
Due to daddy selling our flats, it's difficult to have kiki with us when visitors come.
Sent her to grandma's house.
Cant bear to leave her T.T
After that came back home to grab my stuffs for tuition.
Reach home after tuition at bout 7pm.
When i opened the gate, there's no kiki.
There's no her to welcome me.
It's strange.
My heart felt empty somehow.
But let's hope that daddy will get a new flat soon and i'll bring kiki back asap.
Tmr sch reopen le.
Finally can see Julian le :D
Haha. Happpppppy Happppppy :D
Byes, gtg le (:
Friday, September 11, 2009 @ 6:08 PM
Back People!
2 days since i last post.
This few days, daddy was kinda in bad mood, so cant really use com for long.
Even chatting online also got difficulties siahs -.-
Yesterday... was a long day and short day for me -.-
woke at at ard 9 due to the heavy rain, dhen i sneaked onto daddy's bed and took his phone.
messaged darling to remind him to take umbrella cuz he always leaves house at 9am.
sweet enough ?
Haha. LOL
Later i went back to sleep till 12 shaarp.
Woke up and daddy says wanna bring me out.
Went to cut my hair.
Kind of regret after that -.-
But afterall, it can grow back, so forget it lahs :D
Dhen daddy call me to pack my stuffs, we're going for swimming.
Planned to go online at 3om to chat with darling de.
But ended postponing it to 4pm.
Went swimming aat katong's swimming complex.
It's huge and just a handful of people, so it's better to swim there than at cck complex.
After that reached home at 5.
Im sorry darling, sorry for being online late, one hour somemore.
Really sorry.
Today went to school with ruixuan.
Celine's bad, always overslept -.-
On the way to school, called julian for dunnoe how many times till he finally call back.
Then messaged and chat all the way till i am about to reach home.
I really enjoy and appreciated it though it's only for a few hours.
Accompany celine to make her spects.
Finally !
Liddat u dhen can concentrade and copy down notes in class mahs.
Liddat dhen can score well whad -.- Zzz.
Reahed home started to do all my housechores le.
After that went to do my math holiday homework.
Now using com, going to off com soon le, if not daddy will be nagging non-stop at me again.
Tmr im going out! Weeeeeeets~!
Tmr's Ryan's birthday.
Happy Birthday boy! :D
Alrights.
Bye people.
And finally,
i love you julian! :D
Wednesday, September 9, 2009 @ 5:20 PM
Dint post for yesterday..
Yesterday...
Yesterday...
Oh, went to S'pore Art Meseum for the art competition.
Thought i could meet celine and go together, in the end i cant -.-
Dad drove me over, and insisted to wait for me, 5 hours leh.
Happy waiting?!
Knn, keep following around -.-
Dhen the drawing duration was 3 hours.
It was like 10 hours for me lah, keep looking out of the transparent window..
After that marliah wanted to wash her hands, i followed her out, hoping to see him cuz both of us cant contact celine -.-
After washing hands, i wandered around the toilet while waiting for marliah..
and i turned and saw him !
WEEEEEETS ~ !
Hahahahahaha DAMN HAPPY :D
After that went home le.
Sorry for making you rush down, dhen called you to go home.
Really sorry ! T.T
Today woke up late for school -.-
Maths remedial suck lah eh! -.-
Do so many math for whad?
Do liao also just pass niah -.-
Budt never mind, i'll work harder. LOL
Luckily ruixuan lend me her phone, message with him.
Though it's like a short while?
Sastified :D
Haha.
Thanks for lendning me phone, ruixuan.
Thanks for chatting with me darling :D
WeiHao, thanks for helping me to download :D
Alright, chatting with him now, got to go le
Sleep early ok, darling.
And drink more water(:
Byeeeeeees :D
Monday, September 7, 2009 @ 8:45 PM
Today was a sadddddd day for me and for him too, i guess.
I hate myself, really.
I hate myself, hate my dad, hate everything, everybody in this world.
Except you, baby.
If i hadnt been so deep into it, maybe letting it go now would solve everything.
But, now i no longer can, cuz i need you everyday, i need you badly.
I dun wanna you to be out of my life, but i don't know whad can i do stop my dad.
I really dunnoe.
Im sorry, really sorry, always causing so much troubles for you.
I dun wanna my dad be the one who ends everything.
Please dun leave me, please dun.
Dun say anything. I dun wanna hear. I dun wanna know.
Pls keep your vow. Remember it, and never breaks it.
PLEASE. IM BEGGING YOU.
BEGGING YOU NOT TO BREAK IT.
My dad suck.
May anyone who reads my blog just kill him straight ?
Just kill him.
I dun wanna see him anymore.
I've been explaining to him till im thirsty.
I've repeated it again and again, but he just wouldn't listen.
He just simply wouldnt listen !
FUCK.
Im sorry im sorry.
I dun wanna my dad to break us up.
Keep you promise, keep ur vow.
PLEASE.
I've really gone too deep into it till i cant even oull myself out of it.
I HATE YOU DADDY! __
Sunday, September 6, 2009 @ 9:05 PM
It's been two days since i last post.
Busy on friday, so i dint.
Dhen yesterday reach home too late le, very tired, so i dint post.
Yesterday i woke up ealry!
Waiting for my dad's answer- i can go out not?
All of them were yearning for me to go out badly man. Me too! :D
Luckily i can! If not i would really feel bad bout it.
Thanks for having patience while waiting for my answer :D
Haha.
We actually planned to go town.
But in the end, im lazy and my dad wanted me to be back at evening so we went causeway.
Nice day with you, REALLY !
And i think im wearing really weird that day :X
Even though you all say im not.
I am I am ! >.<
Lols.
Walk around and saw many teddddddy bears :D
Extremely cute! Should save money and but one or two back :D
And saw many babies stuffs!
Should have a baby soon, i guess. Lol.
Let's see when im getting engaged. Lol :x
Dhen went to watch "where got ghost"
Nice show ahs. And it's cold in the cinema.
But luckily got you with me, felt much warmer^^
Thanks for everything that you've given to me.
I love you so much! :D
Today woke up early cuz daddy says he wanna go to Bukit Timah hill to walk.
In the end it started to drizzle dhen he say go to Bukit Batok park.
Lata he changed his decision again, we went to west mall with my track shoes -.-
Felt so stupid walking around the mall with tracks shoes-.-
Aft that, daddy went to upgrade his hp plan.
And i insisted to have that particular hp, which was the one julian's having.
Though its daddy's plan and not mine. Hehe. LOL.
Praying hard that daddy would gimme use it, dhen both julian and i would be using the same hp!
:D :D :D :D :D :D :D
Hahahaha.
Was talking on the phone with him while coming back frm tuition, and you gave me one word- retarded. Seriously, my heart sank! T.T
But it's okay lah, i knw u dint mean it(:
Using com now.
Nothing much to post le.
Goodnights.
And lastly, i love you JULIAN TEOH ! :D
Thursday, September 3, 2009 @ 9:21 PM
Today was a tired day siahs T.T
Had all my lessons.
Thought i would be able to meet Julian today.
In the end due to the art competition next tuesday, i couldnt make it -.-
Something really stupid needed me and it needed all the students to attend to.
Im sorry darling. Sorry to let you rush down dhen ps you.
After school, i rushed down to the staff room to wait for Ms.Tan.
She was the one who's bringing us to S'pore Art Museum.
Took cab down with her paying the money(:
Walked around the museum, sian sehs.
Learnt alot of things, the different perspection of art.
The competition is coming lerh.
Teachers are telling the group of us to work hard because it's not going to be a easy one as schools around S'pore are joining in too.
Hope i can do well in it!
Ended off the thingy at ard 6pm.
Took 190 back.
Reached home at 7.30pm -.-
TIRED ! T.T
After finish posting, im sleeping lerh.
Had promised darling that i'll be sleeping early. Haha.
Btw, there's a good news!
I've passed all my subject! Haha.
Finally! :D
keep up the gooooooood work! :D
Jiayous jiayous!
SA2 is coming in 4 weeks time...
No more slacking and WORK HARD !
Hubby, you toos.
Jiayous! :D
Bye(:
Wednesday, September 2, 2009 @ 9:02 PM
Lessons Lessons Lessons -.-
So boring ehs.
Last lesson was history.
The idiotic Jaime damn whad ahs -.-
i was walking back to my seat, she was sitting beside me ah, dhen she strech out her leg.
Nearly tripped me siahs -.-
Dhen i say her she say she dint -.-
Dunnoe it's true not lehs.
Dhen after that horh, people at there listen whad ms sng say right,
the stupid jaime go tickle people -.-
Dhen i laughed and i shifted my seat to the right.
This was doen to prevent her from touching me.
Dhen the stupid teacher call me to move forward leh-.-
Jazzline say " serve you right"
Teacher also call her to move forward.
Then the both of us looked at each other and laughed...
The teacher said " GET OUT ! " -.-
Nahbeii.
I oso dint do anything lorh T.T
Dhen after that thought i can meet Julian up, but too bad.
He needs to rush back home to have his tuition T.T
Went home with celine. Kind of not used without having julian with me when im going home.
Reached home, did my homework and stuffs.
ONLINE TIME!
Talking to hubby currently(:
Okays lahs.
Got to go lerh.
Promised him that i'll be sleeping at 10pm
Nights people.
Byes(:
Tuesday, September 1, 2009 @ 9:19 PM
Today was a public holiday.
Long and sad. Rainy day!
" rain rain go away, come agian another day "Cant the rain just stop -.-
*hmphs.
Today was meeting Celine and Julian at Lot's Library.
Due to the rain, my GL dad says i cant go out. zzz
But finally, the rain started to stop lerh. Haha.
So i can go out liao! :D
BUT! My GL dad followed me all the way -.-
NAHHBEH :x
Luckily he went off.
Sorry darling, sorry to let you wait till he's gone dhen u'll able to join me.
Really sorry.
Study study, i dun even think i did lorh :x
Hahahaha :D
Really appreciated you being with me.
And i love it so much.
I love staring at youI love your smileI love the way you look at meI love how you hold me next to youSometimes i just cant bear to leave youLet's hope everything would stay how they areLet's hope they'll be betterThe fights that we once had, i'll keep it,Whereas the happy moments we had,I want you to keep them.Just inside you and my heart and we shall carry on with our journey(:Had dinner with dad.
It's 10.01pm.
Got to go lerh.
Stil having lessons tomorrow -.-
Nights(:
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