Tuesday, July 17, 2012 @ 11:38 AM
Hi darling,
today is 17th July.. 2 more days to our 35th Month. How do you feel about that? hahas. we had been together for so long, why wanna break up with me? why wanna break up just because of australia. we still can be together what, can't we? Isit because i am very annoying? I always tie you down that's why you wannabe set free? I know, i dont give you freedom, but not exactly dont give.. i still let you go. i let go.. i let go. Do you know how much it hurts to have you leave me?...
I know i kept asking you questions, but that's because i care.. and im paranoid, and im insecure. I know it annoys you very much, and that u even used the "f" word on me. I am sorry. You know you'd never used this word on me before? It's all my fault, because i kept questioning you. Because i kept pushing your limits.. but i only wanted you to assure me.. Just assure me, isit that hard? I am just worried and scared that you will leave me, and will never come back. Your cousin told me that you left because u have other reasons, not just because you're going to australia? I dont know isit true or not, he said he felt that the reason was more than that.. I too, questioned myself why isit because of australia you had to leave, why can't you hold onto the promises and vows that you'd made, commit to them and make them happen? We can have long distance relationship can't we? I know it's hard to commit in a long distance relationship, but if you really love me, you would make it happen right?
I know, you're starting to question yourself already isit? Maybe im really not the one for you.. maybe you'd already given up hope on me.. just that you didnt say, just that u didnt want to let go because.. you pity me.. u dont want to see me break down. i know. I asked you too, you said you dont wanna let go because you still want to keep in contact with me.. But why do you choose not to see me so often..? Do you know that the time we'd left for each other are so limited now, and im so afraid that if i can't see you, i can't see you forever. You said you're doing these because you want me to get used to you not being around when you're in australia to complete your studies.. but why dont you make more time for me, since we have so little time left? why don't you just stay longer by my side for the time being, and assure me..
so many things had happended lately, and i dont know which sentence of yours to believe.. i know you dont love me already, i know. i read your conversation with your cousin, and my heart just.. had no reaction. i guess, im too tired for everything. you said that i was pressurizing you, i am sorry. i didnt mean to. i didnt mean to pressurized you. Please understand that i didnt mean to do it at all.. No matter what, my decision will not change, i know you're going to say im stupid and silly again. But why dont you say yourself stupid as well? How can you let go someone who loved you so much.. how can you do such things to hurt her? Doesnt it hurt you? Don't you feel pain?
I talked to aunty about us, she said we can still be friends, best friends, more than friends now. but we're young and we ought to complete our education first.. and if u said u will come back means you will.. but can i really trust what you say? I mean, i really dont know what i should do.. im so scared that you will leave me, im so scared that you will just go off like that. please, keep your promises, dont leave me..
Because you really meant alot to me.. that's why, i choose to stay. i choose to stay no matter how bad you wanna treat me now. but if you say you will come back, then i should trust you, believe in you and wait for you and be a good girl right? I know i love you more than you love me now, and it will lead to you taking me for granted.. but.. it's okay. please dont make me wait for you for more than your degree duration okay? I can't wait for us to be back together again. i really cant wait for this 2 years to pass by fast. make it fast. make it fast. make it fast. please.
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Tuesday, July 17, 2012 @ 11:38 AM
Hi darling,
today is 17th July.. 2 more days to our 35th Month. How do you feel about that? hahas. we had been together for so long, why wanna break up with me? why wanna break up just because of australia. we still can be together what, can't we? Isit because i am very annoying? I always tie you down that's why you wannabe set free? I know, i dont give you freedom, but not exactly dont give.. i still let you go. i let go.. i let go. Do you know how much it hurts to have you leave me?...
I know i kept asking you questions, but that's because i care.. and im paranoid, and im insecure. I know it annoys you very much, and that u even used the "f" word on me. I am sorry. You know you'd never used this word on me before? It's all my fault, because i kept questioning you. Because i kept pushing your limits.. but i only wanted you to assure me.. Just assure me, isit that hard? I am just worried and scared that you will leave me, and will never come back. Your cousin told me that you left because u have other reasons, not just because you're going to australia? I dont know isit true or not, he said he felt that the reason was more than that.. I too, questioned myself why isit because of australia you had to leave, why can't you hold onto the promises and vows that you'd made, commit to them and make them happen? We can have long distance relationship can't we? I know it's hard to commit in a long distance relationship, but if you really love me, you would make it happen right?
I know, you're starting to question yourself already isit? Maybe im really not the one for you.. maybe you'd already given up hope on me.. just that you didnt say, just that u didnt want to let go because.. you pity me.. u dont want to see me break down. i know. I asked you too, you said you dont wanna let go because you still want to keep in contact with me.. But why do you choose not to see me so often..? Do you know that the time we'd left for each other are so limited now, and im so afraid that if i can't see you, i can't see you forever. You said you're doing these because you want me to get used to you not being around when you're in australia to complete your studies.. but why dont you make more time for me, since we have so little time left? why don't you just stay longer by my side for the time being, and assure me..
so many things had happended lately, and i dont know which sentence of yours to believe.. i know you dont love me already, i know. i read your conversation with your cousin, and my heart just.. had no reaction. i guess, im too tired for everything. you said that i was pressurizing you, i am sorry. i didnt mean to. i didnt mean to pressurized you. Please understand that i didnt mean to do it at all.. No matter what, my decision will not change, i know you're going to say im stupid and silly again. But why dont you say yourself stupid as well? How can you let go someone who loved you so much.. how can you do such things to hurt her? Doesnt it hurt you? Don't you feel pain?
I talked to aunty about us, she said we can still be friends, best friends, more than friends now. but we're young and we ought to complete our education first.. and if u said u will come back means you will.. but can i really trust what you say? I mean, i really dont know what i should do.. im so scared that you will leave me, im so scared that you will just go off like that. please, keep your promises, dont leave me..
Because you really meant alot to me.. that's why, i choose to stay. i choose to stay no matter how bad you wanna treat me now. but if you say you will come back, then i should trust you, believe in you and wait for you and be a good girl right? I know i love you more than you love me now, and it will lead to you taking me for granted.. but.. it's okay. please dont make me wait for you for more than your degree duration okay? I can't wait for us to be back together again. i really cant wait for this 2 years to pass by fast. make it fast. make it fast. make it fast. please.
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