Tuesday, August 21, 2012 @ 2:41 PM
This post it for................................. i dont know who. Im just talking to myself lor. LOL. im very tired. tired of entertaining guys, tired of trying to find new guy for myself. I wanna move on. But you, julan.. kept dwelling in my mind. whatever i do, somewhat it just link me to you. I dont know why everytime when im upset, im confued.. i still call you... i know la, u only treat me as a friend now.. i know, stop reminding me....
you said, you're a fish that i have to let go now. but sure i will catch you again someday.. when would the day be..? will we ever be back together again? I dont know if by then i would still want to be together with you, or will we or no. i so scared. scared of you leaving me again, so i guess we hall be frieds.. it's so tiring. i wannabe a lesbian can ? zzzz
i know im stupid enough to go up k's house the other day. but i was just trying to help. and now i keep thinking about it. its driving me cazy.. and its making m very upset. 10 years of age gap. same height and blah. omg, what am i thinking?!
need.a.break.