HI HI HI HI JULIAN DARLING !!!

Sometimes im really wondering if there would be a chance whereby you have the time to stop by to read my blog, to read all the letters that i'd wrote to you as well as all the cards that i'd made for you. On saturday, while we were looking for your watch warranty card, i realised that you'd kept every single letter and card that i'd wrote to you. I'm so touched, erm.. I mean, well, i know you'd always kept that, buti didnt know they were still around. Some of those cards that I'd given you, I'd already forgotten that I'd made them for you :x

My point is, I'm so touched, so glad that yo'd kept them all these while. In this box that I'd given you. Thank you darling, for keeping our every memory, every letter. They actually, meant alot to me. And i hope, they meant alot to you as well.

Today, kailin and I went to Toa Payoh to develop photos. It's cheaper there, well.. I wanted to do smth for you, but as you know.. I dont have much money.. So i went to google search and found out that tpy has the cheapest photo developing shop. Hahas. Sorry because I am poor :/ Well, we really do have a different background. However, I still remember you saying that our different backgrounds doesnt matter, as long as we love each other right? Sometimes I just wonder, what are we now...

Hmm, so I went to develop all our photos because I have no idea whether you will miss me when you're in Australia. I don't know if u would still think of me when you're there, because down the road, before your trip to auz, it's half a year.. And maybe, perhaps by then.. All your feelings for me would have faded, right? You used to tell me that your love for me is a kind of feeling that is never ending.. You said it would be an eternity love. I still remember every single sentece that you'd said.. Especially those that meant the whole world to me, because those are all your promises, your feelings and thoughts from the bottom of your heart. I wonder when will I be able to hear them coming out from you. It's been so long since you last sweet-talked to me. And i really really miss them alot. And, you know.. It's hurting me.. very badly. So all these photos, and those that we're going to take all the way until you go auz, if we have the chance, I'm gonna put them in an album and let you bring them to auz, so that if you ever happens to miss me.. you still have my photos, our photos with you to refer. At least, you wouldnt miss me so much, i guess.. Am i right? hahas. And i hope you would be like me, smiling while browsing through all those photos.

I know you hate me crying, you hate to hear me asking you questions. I'm sorry because i always do so alright? I hate it myself to, I hate how much i cling to you, I hate how much i love you, how much i am dependent to you. I hate how much i have to tell you i miss you, i love you, but i get nothing back from you. I hate myself for being naive, doing all things trying to make things better, trying to make you come back. I hate myself for wanting you so badly. BUT one thing i didnt regret is being together with you. I should have known that one day you would leave, because from the beggining i knew that you had to go auz to complete your studies. If only, im not so deeply in love.. If only.. If only.. If only.. there are so many ifs.

Baby, do you know how much i love you? I dont know about you.. but i guess.. you do love me.. right? Just that you're indecisive of what you want.. just that you don't know what is the best solution, the best plan to make the both of us feel better when you're in auz. Right? That's why you're doing this to me, to you, to us. I know you'd already planned all this the moment you know that your studies in auz is comfirmed, the moment we stepped into orchard hotel for the universities forum.. Right? I think, i ought to thank you for sparing a thought for me.. and i'm sorry because i always question you.I know you'd asked me to trust you, but im so afraid that im so vulnerable.. and later i would hurt even more. I know you kept asking me to leave, but i didnt. Dont ask me why, i myself doesnt know it either. There are lots of reasons for me to leave.. but the only reason im staying is because i love you, and i want you to come back 3 years later.. I know, this is rather stupid.. but.. well.. i just can't.. afford to loose you. because when i loose you, i feel as though i'd defeated a war with the world, it's as though i'd lost everything.

This is only the begginning.. So i must be strong enough to go through all these with you right? If what you said is true, and that you really had no choice but to leave because of auz, then i think.. it's time for me to trust you. to have faith in something that i have no idea of what is waiting for me in the future.. i have to trust you, i have to learn to trust, to believe and i have to love you at the same time. I dont know if you'd love me, because everytime, when you said something to me.. i really have no idea what you're thinking deep down inside you. Whether you'r saying those nasty things to drive me away, or telling me that you will come back just to assure me... But i guess, since everytime you tell me to believe in you that you would come back.. i guess you really would, right? YOu just have to do all these nasty and selfish things because you dont want me to miss you right..? (according to what you said) You're really noble, but pretty stupid. haha! but it's okay, we'll be stupid together alright? I'd be stupid enough to wait for you, i mean.. if you never chased after ur dreams, your wants then you would have never lived before right? I guess, being having to force yourself to not love me, or you really can't love me, it's really h ard right? I should put myself in your shoes, am i right? I should igve you support and just go through everything with you for this 3 years.

But i am so afraid that you wouldnt come back. It's all my fault, if i hadn't been so clingy, and questioning with BUTS then i guess, we would be better. I seriously hope that you know, i am doing all these because i really care about you. I will learn to trust you, I'm just hoping that you would bot betray my trust for you, and abuse all these wonderful feelings that i'd given to you. Please, come back for me.. because you love me, and you know that i love you.. and not just because i'd been waiting. And i sincerely hope that we would be better, because i guess.. the second chance is always better..



They say " When a guy cries over a girl, he will never love another girl like her " I asked you regarding this question yet you say that different people have different feelings.. well, my heart just sank at your reply. but i hope, deep down in you, you would say "yes, no one can replace you". I asked if i would be replaced, yet the next minute i told you that you dont have to reply me.. because i am so afraid that your answer isnt something that i really want. I'd just afraid to face the reality, im just too timid to loose you. I rather live in my world, with all your lies and embrace you in my arms.

Because i love you, I will learn to trust you again, to believe you like i'd never believed before.. and i will gear up for this war that is going to last for 3 years. I take your word of coming back and i will wait for you to return, and like you say.. to come back, love me again, and chase me all over again. I trust, I believe, I fall in love with you, we will be better.

Yes, i am naive. But, that's how i am.

I love you julian, forever and always. XOXO.

HI HI HI HI JULIAN DARLING !!!

Sometimes im really wondering if there would be a chance whereby you have the time to stop by to read my blog, to read all the letters that i'd wrote to you as well as all the cards that i'd made for you. On saturday, while we were looking for your watch warranty card, i realised that you'd kept every single letter and card that i'd wrote to you. I'm so touched, erm.. I mean, well, i know you'd always kept that, buti didnt know they were still around. Some of those cards that I'd given you, I'd already forgotten that I'd made them for you :x

My point is, I'm so touched, so glad that yo'd kept them all these while. In this box that I'd given you. Thank you darling, for keeping our every memory, every letter. They actually, meant alot to me. And i hope, they meant alot to you as well.

Today, kailin and I went to Toa Payoh to develop photos. It's cheaper there, well.. I wanted to do smth for you, but as you know.. I dont have much money.. So i went to google search and found out that tpy has the cheapest photo developing shop. Hahas. Sorry because I am poor :/ Well, we really do have a different background. However, I still remember you saying that our different backgrounds doesnt matter, as long as we love each other right? Sometimes I just wonder, what are we now...

Hmm, so I went to develop all our photos because I have no idea whether you will miss me when you're in Australia. I don't know if u would still think of me when you're there, because down the road, before your trip to auz, it's half a year.. And maybe, perhaps by then.. All your feelings for me would have faded, right? You used to tell me that your love for me is a kind of feeling that is never ending.. You said it would be an eternity love. I still remember every single sentece that you'd said.. Especially those that meant the whole world to me, because those are all your promises, your feelings and thoughts from the bottom of your heart. I wonder when will I be able to hear them coming out from you. It's been so long since you last sweet-talked to me. And i really really miss them alot. And, you know.. It's hurting me.. very badly. So all these photos, and those that we're going to take all the way until you go auz, if we have the chance, I'm gonna put them in an album and let you bring them to auz, so that if you ever happens to miss me.. you still have my photos, our photos with you to refer. At least, you wouldnt miss me so much, i guess.. Am i right? hahas. And i hope you would be like me, smiling while browsing through all those photos.

I know you hate me crying, you hate to hear me asking you questions. I'm sorry because i always do so alright? I hate it myself to, I hate how much i cling to you, I hate how much i love you, how much i am dependent to you. I hate how much i have to tell you i miss you, i love you, but i get nothing back from you. I hate myself for being naive, doing all things trying to make things better, trying to make you come back. I hate myself for wanting you so badly. BUT one thing i didnt regret is being together with you. I should have known that one day you would leave, because from the beggining i knew that you had to go auz to complete your studies. If only, im not so deeply in love.. If only.. If only.. If only.. there are so many ifs.

Baby, do you know how much i love you? I dont know about you.. but i guess.. you do love me.. right? Just that you're indecisive of what you want.. just that you don't know what is the best solution, the best plan to make the both of us feel better when you're in auz. Right? That's why you're doing this to me, to you, to us. I know you'd already planned all this the moment you know that your studies in auz is comfirmed, the moment we stepped into orchard hotel for the universities forum.. Right? I think, i ought to thank you for sparing a thought for me.. and i'm sorry because i always question you.I know you'd asked me to trust you, but im so afraid that im so vulnerable.. and later i would hurt even more. I know you kept asking me to leave, but i didnt. Dont ask me why, i myself doesnt know it either. There are lots of reasons for me to leave.. but the only reason im staying is because i love you, and i want you to come back 3 years later.. I know, this is rather stupid.. but.. well.. i just can't.. afford to loose you. because when i loose you, i feel as though i'd defeated a war with the world, it's as though i'd lost everything.

This is only the begginning.. So i must be strong enough to go through all these with you right? If what you said is true, and that you really had no choice but to leave because of auz, then i think.. it's time for me to trust you. to have faith in something that i have no idea of what is waiting for me in the future.. i have to trust you, i have to learn to trust, to believe and i have to love you at the same time. I dont know if you'd love me, because everytime, when you said something to me.. i really have no idea what you're thinking deep down inside you. Whether you'r saying those nasty things to drive me away, or telling me that you will come back just to assure me... But i guess, since everytime you tell me to believe in you that you would come back.. i guess you really would, right? YOu just have to do all these nasty and selfish things because you dont want me to miss you right..? (according to what you said) You're really noble, but pretty stupid. haha! but it's okay, we'll be stupid together alright? I'd be stupid enough to wait for you, i mean.. if you never chased after ur dreams, your wants then you would have never lived before right? I guess, being having to force yourself to not love me, or you really can't love me, it's really h ard right? I should put myself in your shoes, am i right? I should igve you support and just go through everything with you for this 3 years.

But i am so afraid that you wouldnt come back. It's all my fault, if i hadn't been so clingy, and questioning with BUTS then i guess, we would be better. I seriously hope that you know, i am doing all these because i really care about you. I will learn to trust you, I'm just hoping that you would bot betray my trust for you, and abuse all these wonderful feelings that i'd given to you. Please, come back for me.. because you love me, and you know that i love you.. and not just because i'd been waiting. And i sincerely hope that we would be better, because i guess.. the second chance is always better..



They say " When a guy cries over a girl, he will never love another girl like her " I asked you regarding this question yet you say that different people have different feelings.. well, my heart just sank at your reply. but i hope, deep down in you, you would say "yes, no one can replace you". I asked if i would be replaced, yet the next minute i told you that you dont have to reply me.. because i am so afraid that your answer isnt something that i really want. I'd just afraid to face the reality, im just too timid to loose you. I rather live in my world, with all your lies and embrace you in my arms.

Because i love you, I will learn to trust you again, to believe you like i'd never believed before.. and i will gear up for this war that is going to last for 3 years. I take your word of coming back and i will wait for you to return, and like you say.. to come back, love me again, and chase me all over again. I trust, I believe, I fall in love with you, we will be better.

Yes, i am naive. But, that's how i am.

I love you julian, forever and always. XOXO.

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