Saturday, August 29, 2009 @ 8:47 PM
Sometimes, crying out would help more.
i'd rather the tears to drip than to hear you say whadever you wanted to say.
Even if u call me to stop, i'll still continue to do so.
After the tears stopped dripping, u'll feel much better.
Im an optimistic girl. I will be fine after awhile time.
But this doesnt mean that im fine.
I've been keeping secrets to myself.
Only me, and me, and me will know whad im thinking.
I woke up early, got back my phone and messaged him.
I could feel the pain in him, the uneasyness in him.
I could sense him aching inside somehow.
He told me bout the offline messages.
I dun wish to read them at first.
I dun even feel like signing in, cuz im afraid the contents he wrote would kill me instantly.
But i got to, i know i got to face the reality.
Im sorry baby, sorry for making such stupid idiotic stuffs to make you feel bad.
One month. I'll treat you like him, as you wish.
I'll follow you, whadever you want and whadever you do.
You know guys, i really hate edwin tioh zhen hui.
I really hate him.
I dreaded too walk pass his class, i dreaded to see him in shcool.
Im trying my best to avoid him, cuz im afraid the memories would start appearring in my head.
If it's not him, i wouldnt be so miserable now.
I wouldnt wait for him for such a damn long period.
I think im a stupid, a foolish person
He's such a bastard.
But it's alright, it had all passed, im with a better guy who's a million times better than him.
I'll make my promise here, HERE, to everyone, that i'll give it my best.
One month's time honey (:
I've been sitting infront of the com for the whole day!
Got to go liaos.
Bye(: