Monday, May 24, 2010 @ 4:16 PM
im sorry that i couldnt change myself. and it's not as though i wanted it. and if you cant accept who i am. then i have nothing to say. im a human, not a robot. i wont listen and change to what and how you wanted me to be. yes, i might have promise you that i wanted to change, and i know you have been trying to tolerate whatever attitude that i've shown to you. im sorry for you to get upset because of me. im sorry to make you tolerate all of this craps that i've given to you. i didnt want today to turn out this way.. i thought i could have spend today with you. because we have not much time left for us. holidays are coming, you're going to malaysia. and that this week, i can only see you for 4 days. furthermore, daddy would be having his check ups and blood test on thurs too. you think i wanted to show you all this kinds of attitude. i wasnt in a good mood. i admit that im wrong for showing you attitude when u didnt even offend me in the 1st place..
i called you when i was having break. you played ur game while i remained silent waiting for you to talk. yes, i told you that we had better hang the phone, because i know that i would shout at you if that continue. i dislike it when u wake up, play games and ignored me when im over the phone. which girl would ever like this?
then after we hang, i expected you to text me first, but in the end it never happen.. i could have just forgot bout all this.. i could have done it.
after that, when u fetch me from school, u ask me who's that girl. for goodness sake. how would i know. plus that wasnt your first time asking me who that was. since u'r so interested in her, then go talk to her!!! it's as though i wasnt ur girlfriend who's standing RIGHT BESIDE you. it's a normal reaction for me show you attitude. if i were to ask you who other guys is, or i kept you out of my sight and look at them, i bet you'll be pissed as well.. what more a girlfriend who had a worser attitude than yours..
then when we reach home, i told you that daddy would be working after that because he still have lots of ice cream in his cart. and you kept asking questions. i asked you to come in, and you walked away.
this was all you want.
i shouldnt have waste my time, writing that piece of letter to you, telling you that i will miss you when you go to malaysia. now i think it was just a paper, an ordinary paper which i should have wrote and gave to you. i shouldnt have let you know how much i wanted to be yours in the 1st place. i shouldnt have intruded into your world, making everything turning upside down, full of frustrated and misery. if this was all my fault, at the end of the day, i know you wouldnt accept who i am and love me wholeheartly.
and you even LIKE this status:
Never ever believe them by their looks, or even their words. Every word they say they just want you to believe them & trust them. By the time it comes they will get you down.
and i know deep down inside, you think that im one.
